BET Awards, Tribute? More like DISGRACE!

I'm going to make this short and quick because I should be sleeping considering I have to get up at 7 in the morning to go to work.

But yeah, I didn't watch the BET awards, I don't watch BET at all. My brother watched it though, and I heard all the horrible performances that went on. All of the artists that butchered the great songs that Michael created. I had to keep shouting from my room, "Oh my god! Who the hell is that singing!?" It was terrible... and for them to have even allowed Soldier boy on the stage- OMG! So so soooo terrible. What the fuck is he even singing/rapping about anyway? I was like, did this idiot just say "I hopped up out of my bed and turned my swag on." What the fuck!? Is that really what he's saying in his lyrics!?
If thats the case I should just go and make my own damn songs and become famous.... I'm going to make a whole other post about music and how it's influenced another time though.

Another quick note, I think (mostly) everyone is a fucking hypocrite. People accused Michael of molestation, they made fun of him, and he was constantly being harassed by the media, making him look bad and shit!! And now that he's dead everyone wants to be all, "Oh, we're going to miss Michael, he was a great guy." Bull shit. Bastards.

Rant over. Shit, I'm going to bed.

She Wants Acid

Why is it so hard to find a male friend? I'd say it were impossible, but then I'd be going against everything I believe in... That being: "Anything is possible."

So, if you couldn't guess yet. I met a guy, his name is Derek. I knew of Derek, like at school and stuff. I saw him in the halls sometimes. Nas was friends with him, so if I happened to see her with him we'd exchange a few words. But I never ever ever thought we'd hang out. The summer works in mysterious ways...

Basically, Derek and his girlfriend Tiffany broke up. Since he and Nas are pretty good friends he wanted to hang out with her and tell her what happened. But she didn't want to go by herself because it felt too much like a date or something. So I told her I would go... Funny thing is, he didn't like the idea too much.
We meet up 30 minutes late at Atlanta Station and we go see "The Hang Over", then we get food at Moe's (I <3 moe's!). After that we walk around Atlantic Station, window shopping, goofing off and talking. Even then we don't speak to each other that much. Its like the both of us are speaking through Nas. I mean we don't know each other that well, I tried to conversate with him a little, but I could tell her was shy.

Finally we sit on a bench, and we're people watching, and talking about what happened with his break up- he supposedly really loved this girl and she broke up with him. So anyway, Nas and I also talk about the guys we were talking to. Nas + Zach. then there was Me + Darian. All which went not so good.

Nas is trying to explain to Derek that he should meet different girls, have fun, date around- because its the summer! And I'm like, "Yeah, at first I really didn't want to date around with different guys... it's just not me. But not I'm like fuck it. I just want to have fun this summer." and Nas said something, I don't even remember, and I was like, "I can't help it, I'm a hopeless romantic." and that was my first mistake. Never again will I ever say that out loud when another guy is around....
So he's suddenly like, "Yeah me too." but yeah, eventually we all leave. I go back home with Nas and we're sitting out on her porch talking and she gets a text.
It’s from Derek, she tells me, and it says, "Your friend is cute." or some shit to that extent. And I'm like, "Who.... ME?" ugh....



Next thing I know, we're friends on facebook. It was fine at first. I didn't mind talking to him late at night because if gave me something to do- I can't go to sleep anyway. So then he sent me a message, and his number was in it. Nas had already warned me that he was really clingy. So I avoided calling and texting him for as long as possible. It wasn't until we arranged to all hang out...
That went horribly wrong... well, not horribly but... it just didn't work out like I wanted. Nas ended up not showing up. I was utterly pissed at her. I felt set up... It felt like a... date!
I met his mom and everything! I was nervous and awkward. Okay... so maybe it wasn't THAT bad. But still. I just wanted us to be friends.

A few days later, he calls and confesses that he likes me. Surprise, surprise. I mean, I already knew. I really hate doing it, but I had to let him down. I told him I just wanted to be friends.... Don't get me wrong, he's a nice guy. He's a great guy. But I don't think we're a good... match. We've got a lot in common, but he's too clingy- borderline obsessive. And he's quiet, too laidback, and shy. I'm quiet and shy sometimes. We can't both be it! That's just boring. I need someone who's crazy, he's gotta be edgy, silly-goofy, exciting, adventurous.

Get it?

Anyway, I still talk to him, as a friend. I spoke to him yesterday. He sent me a song that he did. He doesn't like his singing. I don't think it sounds bad, it just need a little oomf!.... some parts sound great, some sound good, other parts need some work. Practice makes perfect. If he works at it, I think it could sound really good. It’s got a nice indie vibe. I'm going to put it up here... I hope he won't mind me sharing it. He did the guitar, drums, and vocals= One man band.

Overanalyze by Derek Terry> Download Overanalyze


Yesterday we were talking about what a good name for his band would be. He said everything he thought up was taken. One he mentioned was The Blank Checks. That would have been a good one... I'm going to suggest "She Wants Acid".

Oh me! Oh my!

So awhile ago I found out some of the greatest new ever! Like this seriously made my day! I was like, "OH MY GOD! WHERE THE FUCK HAVE I BEEN! I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T KNOW THIS SOONER! OH MY GOD!"

Now... I'm going to share this news with everyone else... because I forgot to do it when I had first found out:

Miyavi got married and is a father to be!

I'm so happy for him :D I've been following his music since I was a wee little 7th grader. And I never thought about him getting married and having kids! At least not with anyone else but me(har har har), not but really hahaha- It's really great. I'm really happy for him.

I was reading some articles about it and some of the fans that were replying were like pissssed the fuck off. And I'm like, dude- Did you seriously think that YOU were going to marry him? I mean, don't get me wrong, anything is possible. But that is just very least likely to happen, you know?

So anyway, I think those fans that have been bitching about it should cool it and stop being so selfish and stupid.

But anyhow

Here is Miyavi if you don't know him: <3

I still can't imagine him as a father... he'd probably be the coolest. Meh, I wish he were my dad.

This is his wife Melody:

She's super super pretty.

Their kids will be gorgeous. I'm happy for them :)